Do one thing every day that scares you.
I have been stuck on this line for months now. I am not saying I am not afraid of anything… in fact… My list is fairly long when I sit down and think about all the stuff I am petrified of. But to actually do one thing that scares you every single day? That is difficult. It is not like I can switch off the power and light the gas stove with a match every single day. Or go find a spider to cuddle or something like that. So what, if I had to, would I do if it has to scare me?
Here’s the thing: our tiny human ended up in
Everything had to change. Not only our eating habits and lifestyle, but also our routine. A normal day goes like this:
- Alarm set for
2amto check sugar and inject if needed.
- Alarm set for
4amto check everything is still fine.
- Get up get dressed drink coffee shower brush teeth eat breakfast make snacks plan meals count carbs measure food weigh food… all in no particular order.
- 7:15 am: tiny human’s sugar gets tested before his breakfast is served.
- 7:30 am: tiny human gets injection according to the measurement above.*
- 7:30 am: give child slow-releasing insulin injection.
- 9:30 am: measure sugar, give
- 12:15 pm: measure sugar, give lunch.
- 12:30 pm: tiny human gets injection according to the measurement above.*
- 2:30 pm: measure sugar, give milk. The boy child sleeps.
- Do whatever until 4:30 pm when he wakes up.
- 5:30 pm: wash the dirt off the little creature.
- 6:00 pm: measure sugar. Feed child.
- 6:15 pm: tiny human gets injection according to the measurement above.*
- 8:15 pm: measure sugar, give milk.
- 11:00 pm: measure sugar just to double check.
- Repeat numbers 1 to 16.
*All the ones marked with an asterisk scare the living shit out of me. Not once a day, but at least three times every single day of the week. Does it bother me? No. Not at all. I am conquering this fear with the best of hearts and pat myself on the back every single time – after I checked the sliding scale and the measurement at least three times of course.
My kid relies on me to do the right thing. He believes in me and trusts that I will do the right thing. And that makes me one brave woman.
Yours in strength,
Image from Mirror Mask.